Layers of Awareness – My kollam experience

Very very heavy post.If you are regular with sadana, seva and satsang then you will be able to relate to this or else will be full of bouncers.

For 4 years i have been doing my sadana, seva and satsang.

Say on an average of missing 100 days in a year, missing 250 days of seva, missing 40 weeks of satsang / year.

In meanwhile have managed to do 10 advanced courses, 2 dsns, 21 days of TTC. Of course after TTC i have been very regular with my sadana πŸ˜‰

What has happened to me because of the remaining days of sadana, seva and satsang is increased awareness, or the realization of how unaware i am. Also the realization has dawned to me that there exist layers of awareness, in one layer or one dimension there is one apparent truth, the moment you go deeper say another layer or dimension another truth unfolds, which completely contradicts the earlier truth or realization.

Often we wake up or suddenly realize that we have fever. Around 2 years back was studying in night, suddenly i observed there was something flowing through my spinal cord, then a twitch happened ( best way to describe it), next moment i had fever. Was fascinating to observe this.

Yesterday i was bombarded with thoughts. I could literally see the thought pulsations. It was a fascinating, scary experience.

I have had a couple of amazing fascinating experiences reminding me again and again to just follow his Holiness sri sri ravi shankars instructions and not to put my brain into it. One such experience

Gurujis instructions for shivarathiri were ( my interpretations or my version) dont sleep in the night.Its very auspicious and do Om Namah Shivaya chanting.

The questions which usually came into my mind was, i dont feel any difference, how does he know, ayyo all night i have to stay awake, what is this Om Namah Shivaya chanting;

For 3 years i used to do it half heartedly. Last year for Maha Shivarathri celebrations were held in kollam, and Guruji was going to be there in kollam. I grudgingly went there, and hmm had the most fascinating time during the days of Maha Shivarathiri. Around 20 to 30 chennai yesplus volunteers were there, we were roaming around kollam, doing some masti, gossiping eating as much junk food as possible, in whatever wrong times possible. We were staying in a room in a bungalow infested with mosquitoes. On top of all this the heat and humidity of kollam was unbearable and food with onions served in kerala ashram. On day of Maha Shivarathiri i would have expected to be dead tired, irritated, frustrated because of irregular eating, irregular sleeping, continuous gossip. On the contrary what i got was a vision of absolutely clear crysal clear mind.

Such Laser focus, such clarity i had never experienced before. Thoughts were coming in slow motion or were non existent.

It was an absolutely bliss for nearly one entire day and then the celebrations which followed were heavenly. I didnt have to close my eyes to meditate, i already was meditating.

The next shivarathri is going to be in kolkota Feb 14, i am making plans and preparing to be with my valentine πŸ™‚

So simple instruction, truth is so simple, that you already know it, just need to keep doing sadana, seva, satsang and be greatful these layers of truth start unfolding.


4 responses to this post.

  1. Valentine! – Which One..? πŸ˜‰

    Kollam trip was totally amazing and profound.


  2. Posted by Aparna on October 26, 2009 at 8:11 am

    Nice to read it… πŸ™‚ JGD


  3. Posted by Deepak on October 27, 2009 at 8:54 am

    Good experience !


  4. Posted by Amit on November 8, 2009 at 10:04 am

    very nice! πŸ™‚


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: