Super sattva month


In the past two weeks have experienced unbelievable heights of bliss, such beautiful moments of tears of joy. It started of with Rishi nitya pragyas satsang in blore. I was on the verge of getting bored with satsangs [ including ashram satsangs], thank god i attended his. It was a satsang like never before, got so inspired to put the effort to become a satsang singer. What amazed me was rishiji sang so effortlessly and had such amazing modulations. I have seen people say that the voice should come all the way from stomach. His was coming all the way from 10 feet underground. After satsang we suddenly decided to go to the airport to see the coolest guy on the planet.

In airport at 1:00, was not at all surprised to see a bunch of familiar faces waiting for guruji. After exchange of pleasantries we waited with hearts full. As he came out, a breeze of calmness swept the place. I was expecting people to go crazy [as i have always seen], there was the initial cry ….Guruuujiiiiiii but then followed by calmness. Every body gave way for each other [yup its not a fairy tale, yes it happened, people were calm, wished guruji and then politely went there way]. I too wanted to say a couple of words, but then just watched him silently, tears rolled down, extremly satisfied came back home. Then started the trips to the ashram.

“I search for a suitable image on the net which could best describe my sheer feeling of bliss, nothing came close”

Everyday going to ashram has been  a memorable experience, seeing guruji everyday, listening to ashtavakra gita discourse that too in the physical presence of master is a thoroughly enjoyable experience. The energy in the yagnashala in the ashram is so unbelievably high, every day is like the last day of navaratiri. As i soak in bliss [Sheer Bliss]  i think about all those people who have attended the yesplus course i have thought and who are not here with me. I miss them, feel sorry for them. Wish they could also get this knowledge. The only thing i knew was to hold onto my teachers little finger, just be with him, listen to whatever he says. At some level a complex is slowly starting to creep in, am i not being an effective teacher. A kind of feverishness arises, need to make myself stronger, more contented, make my presence stronger. As i type this i realise this itself is the cause of feverishness.

It would be good if i can find the middle path here. Making myself stronger without the feverishness. 🙂

If you are in bangalore then do come to ashram daily. The discourse is open to all, you must be assembled by 7:15 at yagnashala. It gets over at 9 and you can be back home by 10.

jgd

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3 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Vinod B S on June 1, 2010 at 6:20 am

    Wish I could be there 🙂
    Just few hours ago even I was pondering over this. I have a guru. I want to be with Him, become His instrument n get strong to do His work. At, the same He also tells us to relax n let go… Don’t be feverish of wanting to do things… Thy will be done…

    Yes, I agree… the Golden middle path is the answer!!!

    Its kind’a amazing how people sitting in different parts of the globe have similar thoughts at about the same time… hmmm…
    🙂

    Reply

  2. Posted by vishwanath on June 28, 2010 at 12:01 pm

    You are an effective teacher.

    Reply

  3. Posted by punith on August 21, 2010 at 9:11 am

    🙂

    Reply

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